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I think it’s interesting how unscientific some beliefs of how the worlds works seems. Most notably that everything has a reason, and everything is fair. Take, for example, belief that heaven exists, and it is where you are going after you die. Almost everyone has an idea (religious or not) that their consciousness plus their memories will be somehow retained in a non-corporeal state after they die (ghosts, spirits, heaven, and so on). But where does this idea come from? This idea of ‘heaven’ or ‘the afterlife’? I’d wager it comes from both the fear of the inevitability of death, as well as the idea that the world would be just too barbaric to give us this freedom of consciousness and a soul just to have everything we are erased. But, hey, it is more likely that this is in fact the case.

The ultimate silver lining seems to be religion. The idea that god is looking out for you, and everything is done to his design. From religion stems ideas like ‘it was god will that you got pregnant’, and ‘it was gods will a particular person died’, and ‘god grants you life after death.’ Sounds great, doesn’t it? But is this all just a way for us to make ourselves feel better about ourselves?

What if there is no god. What if nothing is looking out for you. What if this is all there is. What if the world is in fact a cruel and horrible place. What if you aren’t given a fair chance in the world. What if you don’t even have free will – that life is pre-determined. I’d say all the signs point to the world being all of these things. It’s just to barbaric to take seriously without getting very depressed.

I’ve seen lots of things that make me doubt the solidarity of people. Almost everyone I know (save my parents, their parents, and the chenoweths) have cheated at some point in their relationships. I didn’t think it was possible. I’ve grown to accept that maybe people are weak and liars, and maybe the reality of it all is it is silly to assume in todays world people will not cheat.

I’ve seen plenty of evidence that a strong and good personality is not what attracts a mate – attraction is purely animalistic, determined 90% by the bodies perception of health and stability of your mate. Anyone who thinks people aren’t and can’t be shallow is the person at the receiving end of this reality.

I’m almost certain nobody is looking out for you, and everything is simply a logical and linear reaction based on environment.

I’m going to take advantage of seeing reality for what it is, rather than believing it is something it is not. I’m going to take responsibility for my life, and I am going to work out until I look gorgeous (already down 22 pounds since march!).

Life is cruel. That’s just the way it is!

This is my blog, and I write what I want too. I fully realize this post has no audience that reads it. But here goes, some minor geek complains I have lately:

Doctor Who “The Time of Angels”: In earlier season 3 episode “Blink” it was established that the reason the stone angel statues were “Weeping Angels” was because they covered their eyes so they wouldn’t see eachother and therefore cause eachother to freeze into statues. In the new “Time of Angels” episodes, there is enough Angels which are clearly making a provakative agressive stance eyes uncovered it stands to reason all of them would be frozen. Now, I understand rewriting facts or changing rules for the sake of plot (which doctor who does frequently by being ambiguous with what rules the doctor has to follow considering he has a time machine for the sake of not ruining plot with deus ex machina) but for real, if an aspect of a character is so important it is in their name (WEEPING Angels) then you better honor it every episode the character shows up.

Starcraft 2 Beta: Zerg was my favorite race because it was most insidious and fun to play in Starcraft 1. In the 2 beta, it is alot of fun, but the spellcasters are way too odd. For one, spawning Infested Terrans is weird lorewise if they have machine guns. As the Zerg are purely biological, and humans are clearly an inferior species, the only reason the Zerg had interest in humans was their Psychic potential. You would think infested Terrans would have some kind of Psychic attack or skill, rather than being spawned with machine guns (where did the machine guns get grown from anyway?) Further, Zerg’s spellcaster “the Infestor” is stupid – the early design for it was it could from under ground either cast a poison spell on enemies, or ‘infest’ buildings. It now does neither. All it can do is a crappy mind control like spell, and a movement dampening spell (woopie do) and it also can’t do it from underground. So where does its name come from? What is it infesting? What is it even good for? I ask because I really like tactical spells in RTS games, like spawn broodlings in SC1. Maybe overseers should do that…

I can’t describe enough how awesome the next few months will be. Within the next 10 weeks, I have planned:

- Paul Van Dyk concert
- Road trip to South Dakota for Cousins Graduation (and to get tanked)
- Clay’s Birthday (Comedy Sportz)
- Andrew Nystrom’s Wedding (I believe Annah is coming with)
- Shawn Falosi playing music at the Avatan Nudist Colony
- Bennai Benassi in concert
- MGMT / Ok Go at Rock the Garden
- Pride GLBT festival
- Starcraft II lan party / total geekout / highschool reunion (crap this conflicts with Bennai Benassi)
- Party at Annah’s friend Mickey’s place early June
- Toy Story 3
- Throwing a party July 4th
- Convergence Anime and Comic festival
- Joe from Chicago in town early July
- Insane Clown Posse Concert
- Annah’s 21st
- Brittni’s 21st
- Restimulated (ridiculous weekend long rave?)

These activities need solid dates:

- June Rave
- June Foam Party at the Gay 90s
- Boating with Brittni
- Tubing down the rum with Liz Fuerst

All ending in:
- DEFCON 18 LAS VEGAS ROAD TRIP with a good chunk of close friends. Aww yeah.